What Happened To Me?

there are times i want to quarrel with you.
there are times i want to be demanding.

but i tell myself nonono.
never be demanding for your time.
i remembered what joel said to me.
so i've learnt not to be.

never start a quarrel.
because i don't want us to be broken.

and here i am, suffering.
i can't believe that ongliting can tolerate these things.
i've changed.
good or bad?

i've tried :)