What Am I?


sometimes i feel pathetic with no actual goals in my life
or should i say i set them but got no determination to reach them
sigh
i hate myself for being so useless :(

there are many things i want to try out and accomplish before i turn into an old hag
but i lack the confidence
in short, i don't dare to try new things by MYSELF
i wish there's someone by my side to go through everything with me
:(
it's all because im afraid of failure
thats why i hate competitions, gaming and stuff
cause they involve winning and losing, success and failure.

how how how
why am i like this?!
*slaps

im worried that going to university will not be useful for me
cause after that i will still be a useless bum
waste so much money going through so many yrs of education
whats the point?