Too broken

Have you wondered why is your girlfriend or boyfriend easily jealous/possessive/insecure?
instead of getting frustrated, have you ever thought that it's because he/she is too afraid to lose you and needs more of your attention?

i controlled my emotions just now
but still broke down and cry right after you left
xinyi saw and asked me why
i covered up with another reason which is my relative passed away
(which is true, i won't curse my relative de okay)

the person i din expect to care actually do
and the one whom i expect to care doesn't...

depressing...

i wasn't like this in the past
i even let my ex go out with GIRLS
and doesn't give a shit

but now i even get paranoid when you talk to girls
this is insane
i hate myself being like this, really...

why and when did i become like this?
Probably from the day you enter my life, you slowly changed me to a different person

how?
now i can't even talked to the one i smsed just now
fml

i'll change..
i will try..

what kind of person am i supposed to change to right now?
i have no idea but i will find out the answer slowly =')