was posted on Wednesday, July 27, 2011 . 1:58 AM
Call Me a Fool
I thought there was still mutual love between us so I hold on to you and us..
On your birthday, I felt everything was real and you do want me back.
But other days, you just left me hanging there.
I don't know do I even matter to you.
But somehow I managed to persuade myself to believe in us despite all those insecurities.
Isit because I call you too much that you get tired of me?
Or isit when i tried to "control" you because I think it was for your own good that you find me a nuisance?
You are a mystery. I find it getting more and more difficult to understand you.
I really want to know how you feel and what you think but you just wouldn't show it.
That's why I made myself transparent and told you about my feelings and everything.
Just so that there's still hope for us..
Slowly, you tried to not reply my text.
You would reply after a long while...
Why? I know you wouldn't tell me so I infer myself.
-You are trying to keep a distance from me-
and why?
-because the love is fading-
I believed you have read the email.
But you lied..
why?
-because you don't know what to respond-
why?
-because the love is no longer strong-
I can feel it.. but I wasn't ready to face the harsh truth
Because as long as you give me a little hope, I will give in my all.
I felt that im the only one holding on to the memories.
You're no longer trying..
Instead, you're running away..
Today, somebody gave me a wakening call.
Suddenly, I don't know if your feelings were real/fake.
The person I love is not the current you...is the old you.
he's dead, so am I.
In short, I tried too hard.
Thats why you are trying to run as far as possible.
Don't bother to run anymore...
This time, Im not chasing after you....
“分手后不要恨，因为曾经深爱过”
I will try
